Fall from grace.

have u heard of the phrase "the higher you climb, the more pain it is when you fall"? Well latelly its been feeling like that for me.. Things have started looking up up up and then bam straight down into a pile of shit.. Am i frustrated? Well yea.. Wether its feeling underappreciated or just plain old opps i fucked up.. I can't help but wonder is there more for me in this world or am i just peaking out, i've been meeting a lot of new people and some share my ideology in life but some look at it in a different way. Am i a fool for thinking the smaller things in life mean more than the big things? I feel like when we fail an exam it just means we have to try harder.. Always optimistic, always positive because when the dark days come it can be very depressing.. Am i depressed? No! But these rush of emotions haunt me like a tunnel with no light at the end.. No salvation, so is it really worth all the heartbreaks, disappointments, disagreements and even unhappiness! I want it to go back to when things used to be..when i woke up every morning thinking its gonna be a great day.. Music, life, moods, environment and everything were in complete sync with each other..almost like the feeling when ur in love. A whole complete feeling of achievement.. I guess this is it, the final beat on a drum the part where i say enough is enough and turn the volume of life up and take control.. Join me in this quest for that something more, depression is just in the mind, lets conquer it!